心理的话

最近心血来潮为我的部落格留下了我的回忆和心事。其实我真的在低潮的状态之中，因为我对宇彬的要求好像有点过分了，我对他的思念比往常来的严重。好久没有和他一起吃饭了，聊天，甜蜜的过去好像我们维持我们之间的信任。我无法不承认他是我爱的人，我不可以失去他，但是我越执著我们的感情时我感觉累了。以前我不介意他的忙碌，胜至一两天没联络我都可以明白，我好像改变了，我需要他，不知道他会明白吗？当我遇到困难时我真的很需要他的支持但是因为忙碌我自己面对。我的朋友说交我这类型的女友是最好因为不用为她们操心，坦白说我需要人关心我。当你把我放在一旁时我内心感觉无奈，无法透露我的心情只好在你面前撒娇提醒你，我需要你。时间的交叉点来到了尽头，我还是要回到我的职位上continue my life .当时间放荡时，我都么希望你的信息会发到的我的手机，荧幕上都是你的痕迹，我希望你告诉我你的心情就算糟糕我也会与你分享，当我问你是否有事情要与我分享时，那一刹那你回答no , nth , dun know ,我就明白还是算了吧！我希望你回找话题和我一起分享，但希望也是变成失落。当你睡觉时我希望你说晚安，亲爱的我爱你。我爱你这三个字好久都没有说了，想念你是必然，我明白忙碌可以冲淡我对你的期待因为我害怕寂寞。我也时常在等待你是否给我拨电，虽然一星期有一天我也会开心。 ^^

     惊喜是我无时无刻期待的事！可是我明白那是很难的。有时静默的想到地我们的快乐会占很多吗？看见别人的甜蜜我也不是起了妒忌的念头，心里挣扎到底什么时候我可以感受呢？我不埋怨你的性格因为这是属于你的，我也需要你的爱。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

Angry at my lovely one ( 20/2/2011)

I was in a bad mood after the church last Sunday . I am angry at my dear who is the person always like so quiet without any responds for me after i ask him question . His sister call me to sit in front i rejected because i dun want sit with him since there were someone be with us so i controlled myself to avoid quarrel with him . Actually i not quarrel face to face with him since few years ago . When he reached his house , he text me but my reaction just like super cool because that time i really dun know how to give him reaction .. Benedict told me that dun keep everything in heart just tell him so I sent a email to him telling all my felling ,I am his girlfriend he suppose to take care me well beside I also have to take care of him . I know caring is the one way for showing our love to someone but am i still caring at him ? He always give me a wood reaction which i could not accept well . =.= My brother told me that if u love one person just accept everything although i agree at this , I also know that environment can affect someone personality . I just wish that I can care him like how I care myself because I know I LOVE HIM .