Camp .. ^^28-31/5/2011

实在一个让我无法忘记的生活营，不只是有惊喜也有很多回忆。四天三夜，睡眠当然是不佳没关系最重要有机会给我休息就算短短的3小时我也要休息。^^没有特别的埋怨，脾气也不坏了，是真的吗？还是我已经没力气了？第一天，当讲座进行时天保竟然被优敬撞伤，门牙移动，痛死了！泪不断的流，心也酸了还好没事要不然真的毁容。天啊！第一天的生活营好像一团糟？大家好像都开始有负面的思想，我尽量告诉自己不会有，因天主与我们同在。心里不断的为阿保祈祷，相信一定可以熬过去。 ^^第一天的晚上，我的宝贝回到宿舍，说了一句话：现在的医生是骗人的，相信他一定很不爽了。宝贝不是每位医生都是这样的，要是我是医生我决不会这样。我希望你能尝试去相信你身边的尤其是你爱的人，要不然有很多误会产生哦！第二天，累啊！Station game，一看见我的床就想睡了，而且是我的宝贝陪我一起睡，想死了，很有安全感感，搂腰睡觉的感觉真希望不要到晴天。哈哈！第三天，不会很累只是之前已经累过了，躺在床就睡了，宝贝抱我，（舒服）。好喜欢他抱我，就是拥抱而已，现在回到家都已经向他了！宝贝，我爱你！今天吃午餐时，闷闷不乐，偷偷看他吃饭！　哈哈就希望他不要离开我吗！想拥抱他可是不敢，想和他拍多多的照片他不要咯！　＝。＝

宝贝，谢谢你的陪伴，我会守自己对你的承诺，就好像讲座时，讲师播了一个短篇，那就是当我接受你的一切，包容你，与你一起坚持我们的爱情，因为我真的爱上你了.^^

Cheer

Time passed like a speeding car , 3 months preparation of camp is almost come to the end .. Not just exam is my final .. So much stress which i am taking it now .. =.= Wat to do , stress only can improve my standard , when i am having lessons in class feeling how am i going to finish all my syllabus ? Lack of time but i tell myself i can Make it which I am not just like last time .. Lazy is one of the excuses that i always give to myself , perfection is one of the thing i am achieving although my family always tell me that " Way , take it as easy , dun stress yourself so much ," thank you all my loving family . I know i have to put effort for everything i am going to achieve . I am the proud of my family, that is why i choose to be perfect in everything .. My classmate around me is just a higher standard from me although it seem look like , in my spirit I tell myself i can do it .. ^^ No negative effect just keep it up ^^ ..

  Love is different from success , it depends on how much work u have done . Cheer up , Soo Way ..

想念他

天阿！我到底怎么啦？非常非常的想念，就是想念没有其它，只希望他陪伴着我。冷静的反省，要是有一我真的想不起他了，我会感觉如何？不想告诉他，宝贝我想你给我一个爱的拥抱。可能情绪紧张想看见他，想借他的肩膀依靠，虽然我说我明白但就是还是想你。希望你陪伴着我，要是有一天，真的见不到你，我真的会很低潮就算时间 可以平复但一旦想起你我也会感觉无奈。曾经在想是否我爱的无法自拔？值得吗？想过对他无时无刻的冷淡，但我办不了，在他的面前我就是无法表达我对他的思念。夜间，思念，床上只有他送给我的那只小狗，我抱着，心里还是在想，天啊！ 淑薇，你疯了。我尽量告诉自己，冷静，不能太冲动明白与了解对方的空间。我也需要给我自己一些空间，我明白自己可以办到，但问题是（时间）。
  总之，想念就是无法挽救，可能就是我对他爱的承诺。。 ^^

My days from 14-17

 14 May 2011

There was a funny things happen in these few days ...My bf met with my family members causing him so embarrassed of it actually long time ago my mum call me to invite him for dinner with her but i rejected .. I said if i not yet go to his house for dinner i will not invite him to come . ^^ Actually he not met with them is see with them since the ' meeting' is so short just 10 minutes but i think he was scared .... We went to Tesco , Chiplee and Giant to buy something for camp , I call him to accompany me lol , i not try the feeling before .. But i really like it ... ^^ I like to hug him from back ,hope that he can hug me back . I like to see his action when he choosing something which so details and serious .. I am laughing there as tell him if i shopping with him next time sure i will hot tempered by the way i hope he always accompany me ... ^^ After that we went back .... So nice scene when he came to my house as he also help me to send my sis to tuition .. My sister said why he want to choose a long way ? I said he already act like a habit because he dun like to use HIGHWAY ...  Miss u , baby ... ^^ 

15 May 2011

I awoke early in the morning to prepare for the breakfast sale , not enough sleep but i still awake because i am doing my work .. ^^ that is my attitude when i am doing sth i will not fall asleep easily . Although i am tired .. I can see him again ! He is handsome that day , just because of the clothes that he wears , although i can see his stomach from the side ... ( JOking ) but i like it .. I like to hug him because he is mine .. When he sit down at the chair i hope i can sit at his leg i hope he can hug me as hard as he can but there are quite crowded there so i not dare to do it .. ^^ I miss u honey ..On the half way of the breakfast sales i got to go for reading , i think is ok for that because so many times i d read for it .. I saw him attend the mass although i call him to stay there to help them for the breakfast sales , thinking that he want to see me more or her want to see me to read for it ? He is supporting me from action right ? After mass , meeting start when he came to beside me , the distance is so near 

hope can ly at him ... ^^ We went to buy food after the meeting ended , he help me to pay thank you honey .. ^^ 

16 May 2011

A quarrel day , which i really angry at him . He not follows me for movie with the reasons that he has a lot of homework , actually he scared her mum mumble at him . Suppose i have to think of it as not just angry of it .. I really not a good girlfriend . sorry honey . I not bother him , just revenge , cold war start making him so nervous on it but he dun know what to do . Omg that making more furious of it until next day i still like no mood to bother him .. ^^ He dun know what i am going to inkling for .. But anyway i d forgive him.

17 May 2011 

Such a ashamed day ! I went to li yun house for meeting in the morning , sth happen .. A big case in my life . I not dare to say of it .. Really such a stupid thing that i done in my life . I block others way but i dun know as causing someone move my car . Car not spolit but it is such a embarrassed thing that causing me almost dying .. When i saw him i just hope he can come to me and hug me . I will cry as big as i can ... But the situation not allowed i really hiz ... dun know how to explain ... Over is over .. Soo way forget it ..

So much things happen during these few days... I experince different things but that is so much i have to remark in my mind .. Memories with him are great ... ^^

承诺

大家好，好久没有更新我的部落 了。 ^^ 脑袋里不知道在烦着什么？也许是我的课业和青年营，不过这不是我要和你们分享的。我身边的朋友最近都在闹情绪，一个个失恋，分手，好像最近大家的桃花运也和气候一样反反复复？然而我和我的宝贝就不一样，无时无刻我都在思念他，就算不能见面我也能忍耐，思念虽然用尽了不少的时间和精神但感情就是要为对方做出一些承诺。他在我心里就证明了，他是我目前的唯一，不管将来会发生什么事，只要让他幸福我也愿意，虽然他不是最好的理想对象但我知道他是爱我的。上天不会辜负我们，只要我们相爱那就好了。他会为我而烦恼，操心，犹豫等，爱的行动已显现出来，我觉得只剩下一天和他相处的日子也感觉幸福。虽然我们的性格完全相反但只要配合大家那已经够了。
    没有永恒的爱情，只有守着爱情，我们对方没有像上次一样轰轰烈烈只有平淡的日子。现在感情公开，自然我也松了不少，不需要拖拖拉拉，害怕被人发现，一步步的感情一定有好的效果，经历不少的风险我们仍然在一起证明我们是相爱的。我爱你宝贝。

我和他

最近身边的人都好像在闹分手，怎么搞得？随随便便就能分手？ 实在太不像话了！可是我同情我一位朋友的感情，他们真的可以说互相爱对方，可是因为宗教观念不一样所以大家都忍耐不住了，悲剧故事上映了。9年的感情，分手就分手了，真的经过不少的风吹雨打，双方就这样没了。爱情的世界真的让人感受不一样的情怀有时幸福，快乐 然而有时伤心和无奈，没有对和错只有爱和不爱，交往不知是两个人的事往往我们牵涉其它的人在内尤其是我们的家人。感情可以放弃，家人怎样也好，我们的血流着的也是同一品种，没有埋怨，那就是我们的命运。

 我和他最近的感情〈幸福〉，不知道为什么我总是想念，想念在想念。^^ 我没有怀疑他对我的爱，但我希望他是我第一选择也是最后的一个选择，有时在想自己是不是太天真了？那里有白首偕老？可是我真的希望就是如此。喜欢躺在他的身上感觉温暖，喜欢听他刚睡醒的声音，喜欢他拥抱我的感觉，喜欢他了解我的感觉，一切一切我都喜欢，开心的日子希望每一天都是，虽然不能每一天都见面，有时1星期都没见面一次都无所谓，只要你在我心里不断的环绕我也愿意等待。。。 ^^ 爱你，宝贝。。。。