My story

When i am writing this post , my feeling is quite stress because i dun know how to describe my feelings .. There are so many things need to settle by me but i still acting like i am such boring life .. I am not willing to do things because i am lazy compared with my classmate they are really hardworking enough ... No point to describe about my lazy . Attitude is the most important to achieve success , nth come easy same like no free lunch in our society that is the fact .. Anything also need to come from our efforts that's why many of us unable to reach for our goals because we cannot be hardworking always . Actually this is not my purpose to write about this is about my friends who all around me in college time . There are always making myself to be tiny because my knowledge is not as much as them  , results as not as well as them , my sports as not good as them , but i am going to fight for my own good , i am such as happy i am ... I am happy always ^^ Optimistic really bring me to my way , i able to know which roads i suppose to further in together enjoying my college life .. Competitive sure a must in our growing process but i knows how to manage .. I have a happy family , i have a loyalty bf and also i have confident at myself .. My friends can do it , why i cant ? There are not failure in my mind until i said to myself i give up ... Sorry but that is not so easy for me .. I can survive until today because i have power from my family and friend ... Mummy always says :  Girl , just keep it up , dun so stress to yourself ... Mummy loves you .. Mummy i also love you ... Friends always say soo way , u can make it , cheer  up ... So many ppl encourages me why should i still living in a way that are so stubborn for accepting the failure ? Coming days we ( my dear and i ) will work hard together so sure my goal can achieve ...
  I have a classmate who comes from same hometown with me , she getting worse , skip class goes for fun , enjoy very much for her life , she really get lost , keep shopping and hanging around ... I really scared for her attitude , why she going to be such attitude ? Her mum sure will very sad ...I told her try to study hard , dun keep mix with those ' happy go lucky ' friends but she just said she can settle herself .. Sound like i am Kei Po Chi ....=.=  That's all i want to share with u guys ... Take care and happy always ..

Surprise

Is such a surprise that i met yesterday , this surprise almost let me cry ... I was so shock and excited when i know that i am such the lucky one , do u guys know what is that ? My bf came to my school to celebrate my birthday .. Firstly i taught he is just joking , he said he reached my school , that time i almost shout to my friends , this is impossible , i walk around the school to meet with him , staying around walking for 1o minutes , thinking that is this a true or i am dreaming ? When i reach the bridge i saw his car , is HE ! Few days before i am still in moody , complaining that he dun want to celebrate my birthday , finally he came .. Although just meet for a while but i am really happy .. We went to mc d to take my lunch , because it is near so no choice i have to rush for my class ... =.= Firstly , we not chat that much , when i ask him when u finish ur class on wed , he said 2 or 3 o'clock , that time i am so angry lol because i taught he finish at 7 or 8 pm , so irritating . Why dun want to celebrate my birthday on wed ? He said he is tired alright , nvm then i went to buy ice cream , after eating ice cream sure i feeling better , but when i got back , accidentally drop it . I also accidentally split it on his pants , OOps sorrry baby .. I am so frustrated that time dun know what to do ? I went to take tissue paper to clean his pants , but i think that dirt cannot goes off . Sorry baby .. That time i already no mood so we go back to my school , during the journey , he gave me sweet . ^^ Sticky that time i was blur , are u sure that is my present why dun have card ? I know that time he is smiling lol , just dun want to twist my head to his side . When we reach my hostel , he called me to wait for him because he wants to take ' BOOKS' , dun think I am stupid , i know what he wants to take but i taught is bear or what when he takes for me . My present is bonquet of purple rose . I am so touching ! OMG , my favourite .. ^^ Then he gave me a birthday present , guess what is that ? Is a very nice dress , I love the colour and design... Thank you baby . Muakss

 He made a birthday cards , really handmade . I really like it ... Naughty baby .. I love you . Thank you for all the surprise that u gave to me ...

Again bad news,

Here the story start : 

My birthday is coming around the corner , it is on this Wednesday . My birthday wish is just a simple thing that is celebrates with him just with him but i know this time my hope drop into deep of sea , after his school started he told me that his timetable is packed on Wednesday i d prepared myself that he is not coming to celebrate . I am moody not because of this is the attitude to me , he dun know what i want although so long we d together , he is not that patient to understand what i need . I dun want jewellery , money or properties , i just need his accompanied but this is the most difficult i face .. He is 21 years old but i am 18 , every year i also celebrate his birthday with him but he is not really going to celebrate mine on time . I am feeling super sad , really . I cannot describe how is my feeling as i just coming our of tears , sometime he is so innocent of me because he dun know how to make me feel better . He dun know how to let me happy , just very easy way , love me . U promised u love me but do u know LOVE really not just say our from the words , is like u are willing to give me sth with full of ur heart . I am sad when this year we cannot celebrate each event that are related to us . I am always encouraging my mum that my bf really take care of me , protecting from hurting but the fact is not like that . Am i too aggerssive on it ? I always tell myself he is busy so cannot accompany me well . But i also busy i know how to arrange my time because when i think at his day i will try my best to celebrate with him which i promised myself in heart ,. Am i hurting myself ? Am i too childish doing at this wish ? i just hope both of us can last longer . Sometimes i really feeling tired , saying want to brake just because love i stop my mind . U are my bf , i just hope everything u can support me , understand me and do sth at me . I dun like ppl who just say love me but do nth , although i not sure how long we can last but i hope the day we end i will say my relationship with u is worth . My expectation at love is not high , just a simple way . LOVE ME . Your action will affect my heart , my way and my mind , the life without u is really difficult to cross over , if one day i say we are finished , this is really terrible things . I hope my life stop crying because of sadness , how long i have to cry again ? When i lying at my bed i just hope that tomorrow we are happy again .Although we cannot meet always but just have a happy chatting is more than enough , really ! Why it is so difficult ? 

   By your words , time can flash  out problem , time can prove our love , time can make us better , time time time . How long i still have to wait for ? I really cannot imagine , u always comforting me not to think so much but how ? My mind is just thinking at u . Everything i do also think at u . Camp , Shopping , even eating . When the first time u carry my hand , i tell myself i trust u that is my words , i hope it is reliable . Travelling i not think of it , dating i also not think that much . Just small action i can extimate how much u loving at me . Sometimes i feel that u are quite self-fish , u are mad and u are crazy . My birthday wish for this year is still the same , happy always with u . Proving is one of the day to convince me to continue love you .

我和他

最近心情沉重，但是我尽量把我的快乐显示在脸上因为我不希望我的母亲担心，她也是烦恼着工作，经济萧条，人名个个为3餐温饱而忧心尤其是开销大的家庭，不知道几时才能熬得过来。好久都没有和宇彬谈谈心，告诉他我的心在想什么，我多么希望无时无刻都有他的陪伴，因为我真的会累，每次我希望把开心的事情与他分享但最近的生活也真的让我吃不消。吃不饱，睡不好，就算我多么的累我告诉自己我一定要熬下去，深夜涕泣，留在我的枕头隔天又要面对新生活。母亲对宇彬的看法有所改变，我的外婆更是想看见他，要是你看见我的家人，要好好打招呼要不然我的家人会说年没礼貌了。

绵绵细雨好过晴天霹雳，流泪不是好办法，只有支持下去才能感觉到喜悦，我真的很希望能成为以前快快乐乐的淑薇不用时常在夜深与泪陪醉。我心情烦躁辛苦的也是我的爱人，为了他们我一定会撑下去，不想其它的情侣可是我真的盼望有一天能向他们一样。每天看见无数的情侣恩恩爱爱心理留下无数的羡慕。旁观的眼神就是那么的不美丽，我是否忘记当时我对他的承诺？我好久没有用文章表达我对他的感情？

我不断的去想我们之间的问题真的把我们开心的日子也忘了吗？请你告诉我该怎么样呢？

Day ...

忙。。忙。。忙。。我真希望每天都是让我听不了的工作因为我爱死了。因为每当我停下时我会想起我和宇彬在一起那么久了，虽然距离不远但是就是不能常常碰面。。。。我真的希望无时无刻他都在我身边。。。他帅了，但我没机会看见，我希望他为了我 可以勇敢的反父母的话可是太天真的我也有家人，谈恋爱不是两人的事而会牵涉到双方的家人。羡慕其它的情侣不管任何人反对就是在一起，看见了报道，世界自然形态有所改变不能像以前一样，设定的目标就会在那刻实现，所以珍惜眼前人。我很想去他家坐坐，虽然不什么大鱼大肉就是普通的家庭饭菜已经满足了。可是那么简单的事往往使我的她问题，奇怪！

  昨天我发现了我的外婆是多么的疼爱我，她烧菜，熨衣就是害怕我累了，不断墩补品给我担心我病了，有时发现我的家人还比我的男朋友更疼我。我母亲最近也在烦恼新计划的工程害怕拿不到所以我也没什么告诉青年营的事情。我不知道前世修了什么福，有那么好的家人疼我。我爱死你们。不久就是我的生日二哥说要送我SWATCH 的手表，我也知道他的处境当然拒绝。

谈到青年营，虽然没有宇彬与我一起进行但是我也是会撑下去^^我的性格吧。只是希望他能和我一起分享成功的喜悦。。

New things , new information ..

Feeling quite sad for myself after i saw those movie or video clips that did by my others classmate . It is great which i have to say that my group is lazy because of our lazy attitude . We can do better but we fail to do so , always hanging around just want to have a happy go lucky life , but this prove that we are not good enough.. Ppl scoring high marks for their test we are just like " O , Nvm is perfectly alright " Shouting cheer for those perfect works which they put enough of effort for it , this attitude i should learn which going to bring me a lot of benefit to my future . Regret for my laziness ? Sorry it is not the time to say for that .. Guilty ? Nope because i still have to make myself better , nth can fight me down except my mind ! The environment is going to change us when we are not strong enough , everyone have their own discipline and principal we cannot just succumb others ppl words , that is not our mind .. I tell myself i will do for myself to prove to others that I AM THE WINNER , not just the way in my education is also my attitude.
          

Sad -> Happy -> Miss

Long time i not upload my blog , so sorry since i was Busying  in my Exam . After i took my Spm results d 2 weeks , I still feeling ok , initially . There was a thunder shock at me when i heard sth that really attack me from my Bimbo yesterday night . He told me that some ppl are talking bad at me regarding on my SPM results , that time i really feeling so so sad..I cannot imagine whats wrong with me , it d 2 weeks for the result release > DAMN! In that moment , i shut down my com , shut down my mind just thinking one thing , I fail ... I cried in front of my mummy and brother who keep making me feeling better . Especially my mummy , She is so kind . I LOVE HER FOREVER .  I went to sleep after this , telling myself , I WILL PROVE TO U GUYS I AM NOT FAILURE , that is my attitude and characteristics , that is the reason why yee pin will fall in love at me . I guess so .^^
   I cant sleep well for that day , wake up at 5 sth but try to sleep more because i know that today will be a very nice day for me to release my stress . I told my friends that I am going to meet with my honey , i not tell him about this , I am waiting for so long .............Finally , my hope realize ... I carried his hand feeling such warm he is , although i keep complaining him that he is wood and stupid .. I know i d hurt him when i told him these words so sorry honey , that time i was so angry causing me will straight away to tell u everything . I walk with him together , nice feeling , environment still not bad , not feeling shinny because wearing cap but he was not wearing .. Pity .. After few hours , we went back to take our lunch .. It is so hungry i cannot control myself to finish a big bowl fish head mee hon .He paid me for the food , long time not eat with him .
 I like the time when be with him, not just caring but the love which we are always to last it longer. Although we are always meet some problem , as i am keep complaining him that he is wood ,stupid and nth much to talk with me , I know and understand that he loves me ..just he dun know how to show his love at me . I LOVE YOU HONEY>>